2 days agoLost at SeaYou know the feeling — the feeling of sitting on a creaking wooden boat, stuck in the middle of the sea, hearing the waves sloshing against the sides, and a heavy-downcast fog that surrounds you. As the fog continues to grow, so does the lack of oxygen. Soon, you’re left…Self3 min readSelf3 min read
Nov 12, 2022I didn’t fight depression just to exist.I fought it to live. I like eating tangerines because it’s an offering for the dead — they get hungry in the afterlife. Also, another reason why I’m lactose intolerant. “The acidity burned my insides” (kenneth ‘aka. my manager’, 2022). Thank you to all the to all the demons, without…Self Love3 min readSelf Love3 min read
Nov 2, 2022The Forbidden Fruit of LoveA poem or love letter of something so pure yet extremely fleeting. what could’ve been isn’t as simple as 3 words put together. what shouldn’t have been could’ve been the start of something. a plethora of ‘could’ve beens’, and yet all of them seem to hurt more than the other. …Poem1 min readPoem1 min read
Oct 7, 2022Let me open up my heart.Warning ahead. Mentions of sexual trauma. The younger me in rose-tinted sunglasses will beg to differ. But I’m not that anymore, it takes having to internally die so many times to see all the truths and lies of the world to understand. Knowing that I won’t be able to experience…Self3 min readSelf3 min read
Sep 25, 2022I was a Trophy Daughter.When I turned 15, my parents complained and nagged at my pubescent behaviour. Being 22 now, I realised that my attitude back then was not triggered by mood swings but rather a change in growth and what I wanted in life. I was a trophy child, it made me happy…Self3 min readSelf3 min read
Sep 3, 2022Dear Younger Self,I’m not here to criticise you, although everyone around you may be doing just that. I’m here to remind you that your past, present and future will collide — regardless of how you’d see it now. …Letters3 min readLetters3 min read
Aug 28, 2022I’m Felicia. I don’t have traumas, nice to meet you!I recently participated in a women’s support group created by my university, it was an eye-opening experience, empowering even. If I introduced myself like that, would anyone realize the underlying meaning behind my words? Probably not. Will I be able to feel comfortable disclosing all my scars to the world…Self3 min readSelf3 min read
Dec 20, 2021Motivation to Become a Better Version of MyselfMy IDGAF mindset stems from childhood trauma and repeated rejection and failure. “I want to become a person someone could prioritise and put me as number 1.” Failing is like second nature to me, it embraces me from behind and caresses my forehead saying ‘It’s okay.’ If anything, it’s the self-acceptance and love I built for myself — and only for myself. Rejection feels foreign…Self4 min readSelf4 min read
Nov 11, 2020Friendships: the Good, the Bad, and the UglyPeople talk about emotionally abusive relationships, but what about friendships? They are the same, sort of. I only recently woman-ed up and told a friend of mine I wanted ‘out’ in our friendship. There are endless stories from people who have gotten out of toxic relationships, but quite hard to…Friendship4 min readFriendship4 min read
Oct 9, 2020I have a tattooThey are windows into reminiscence-filled magic. People with tattoos often say, each tattoo they have on their body has a story. Some, dates of importance, names, symbols, or phrases. They say memories are tattoos of the heart. Etched, memorised, remembered My tattoos consist of small but worthy memories, some painful, some happy, or angry, but most of all…Tattoo7 min readTattoo7 min read
